Improvement // Meme (2016-2022)
(Sorry I had some issues with putting this together, that’s why it’s choppy AAAAA)
Soooo I’m (not) back
I guess now is as good time as ever to explain my disappearance on YouTube
To put it short, animating isn’t fun for me anymore. It’s been pretty obvious. I have unfinished animations from a few months ago that I had not even touched in so long. I feel very badly about this. Animating used to be my hobby, my passion. But that turned to mush within the past year. Some people might remember how I was so active in 2018. It was my golden year. I was so motivated. But overtime this whole process became tedious and dreadful. But that isn’t the only reason. When I was 10-12, I had this big goal for YouTube. I had so many animators I had looked up to. None of them were even pros at it. We were all young kids, doing silly fnaf animations for fun. I miss it. Nosy of those people have moved on since. It’s not the same anymore. It’s no longer fun. It’s now like a fight to stay relevant. So many artists struggle with this very topic. It’s all about mainstream media and keeping up with the algorithm. Doing what you want isn’t considered good enough anymore. The only animations that get out there are whatever is popular for like 5 minutes until it’s the next thing. I miss fnaf x oc animations so much. I miss the pure innocent joy of thinking I had a chance of having the life of my inspirations. But that time has passed. Anyone can be an artist online these days. It’s no longer special. The more famous people that come around, the less unique it becomes. Do you get what I mean?
I’ve tried to change who I was many times throughout my time on the internet. Nowadays I can’t even chose between purrfect cookie and honey husky. Although fate chose for me as I lost access to my honey husky instagram account. I no longer strive for popularity like I did years ago. I pretty much gave up. I miss when animating was fun for me. I miss 2016. I miss being a kid. Everyone around me is growing up and I feel left behind. I don’t wanna be an adult soon. I’m not ready. I wanna be a kid again. I want my sweet joyful innocence back. WAAAAAAAA
