Tag, You're It - Dodger/Simba
WARNING: This video is about rape and an unhealthy relationship.
This video is entirely based on my relationship with my ex-boyfriend. I am Dodger and he is Simba. In the less saturated scenes, Dodger talks to his friends Oliver and Rita about his terrifying experiences.
It has taken me a loooong time but I finally fully realised that my ex has raped/sexually assaulted me many times when we were together. (We broke up over a year ago.)
In 90% of the cases we had any sexual interaction it was because HE wanted it, not me. And I told him I didn't want us to have sex.
I often PHYSICALLY struggled against him and tried to fight him off. It was of no use, most times.
He would just laugh or ignore me when I tried to escape.
I almost felt like I was a commodity of his. A trophy.
He would also brag about having me as his partner, because I am two and a half years older than him.
He would attempt to kiss me in public without my consent.
He would FUCKING TALK ABOUT IMPREGNATING ME AND MAKE VERY WEIRD AND HIGHLY UNCOMFORTABLE JOKES ABOUT IT.
Ugh, it still haunts me. Oh my god...
And two friends of mine told me yesterday that his other (first) ex-girlfriend was also a victim of his. I don't know if he actually raped her but he definitely tried to convince and force her. What a fucking bastard. And yet another friend of mine was sexually harrassed by my ex.
He kept on opening her bra against her will. HE THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY. His sister told him to stop because my friend was clearly uncomfortable.
YOU KNOW WHAT HE FUCKING SAID???
"I know that she doesn't want this, but I can skillfully ignore it."
What. The. Fuck. ARRRRRRGH.
Words cannot describe how angry, disappointed and stupid I feel.
That fucker traumatised me and he probably won't stop traumatising others ANYTIME SOON.
I can't believe I was so blinded by my love that I didn't know he was exploiting me. He's not just a childish, cute & creepy nerd - he's a predator. Goddammit. I have to let that sink in.
